I LOST YOU TWICE

I lie awake at night,

and wonder if you know.

If you knew I loved you,

even though it didn't show.

I lost you once,

and thought I'd never cope.

I wanted to hang myself,

with that tightly entwined rope.

I got you back once,

and prayed to God that it would last.

But it ended in a heartbeat,

It ended way too fast.

I sometimes hold your picture,

and cry myself to sleep.

I think of how I still love you,

and how my love's so deep.

No one understands,

not even my best friend.

That I want to be with you,

Until my life's to end.

I remember that night,

the night that we first met.

I thought to myself,

"This is love, I bet."

If it wasn't for my best friend,

I never would have met you.

Then I did, I got you, and lost you...twice,

so what am I to do?